Missing~
Monday, June 15, 2009
T_T i miss my mom! i miss my sisters! i miss my lil brother! i miss my daddy! i miss them all!!
they are still at Kelantan for 2 weeks and 2 days now.. because my sis[sasha] was warded at the hospital. =[ it has been over than a week she is in the hospital. i was informed she suffered from 3 disorders,they are tuberculosis, she has water in her lungs or is it called pulmonary edema?? i'm not sure about that. and also she has a hole in the heart.it's crazy!! 3 lump sum??!! i can't accept it! yesterday my mom rang me,she said my sister couldn't breathe on her own. so,she is breathing by the help of oxygen mask. i was really worried last night. i want to meet her!!! but i can't!! =[ i wish i had 3 weeks holiday. so that i could go to kelantan and visit her. i'm so sad now. my life here is such a chaos since my mom went back to hometown. i should eat 3 times a day,but since my mom isn't home, so i eat once a day.my 2 weeks holiday gone without spending with relish. such a shame. i used to call my mom and asked her when she would going back home? and she answered, " could u please be more matured? u can't just rely on me forever, u are a nice girl, take good care of ur lil brother". my tears just flowed out directly after she said that. i'm a baby when it comes to my mom. i'm so sensitive. in fact, i'm still phoning my mom but a little different. i won't complain what's happening at home, instead i ask her about my sis's condition. so my mom won't feel worry if i'm not crying like i used to anymore. actually everytime i hear my mom's voice, i'll cry! haha~ but i have to be strong!! my sis needs my mom more than i need her although i really need her now! when my mom is around, i usually tell her what's going on at school, if i feel bad, i'll go and talk to her. i'm also so close with my sister [wanie]. she is a heart entertainer. if i have problems about subjects that i don't understand, she will teach me. if i have problems with friends, she will always comfort me and always telling a true story based on her experiences with her friends. every story that has been told to me,must have a lesson. she has taught me everything!! i miss her!! at this moment,my heart is unquiet and my mind is confused!~ i need someone to talk to!! T_T i'm hoping Sasha will get better soon and they will come home soon!.
they are still at Kelantan for 2 weeks and 2 days now.. because my sis[sasha] was warded at the hospital. =[ it has been over than a week she is in the hospital. i was informed she suffered from 3 disorders,they are tuberculosis, she has water in her lungs or is it called pulmonary edema?? i'm not sure about that. and also she has a hole in the heart.it's crazy!! 3 lump sum??!! i can't accept it! yesterday my mom rang me,she said my sister couldn't breathe on her own. so,she is breathing by the help of oxygen mask. i was really worried last night. i want to meet her!!! but i can't!! =[ i wish i had 3 weeks holiday. so that i could go to kelantan and visit her. i'm so sad now. my life here is such a chaos since my mom went back to hometown. i should eat 3 times a day,but since my mom isn't home, so i eat once a day.my 2 weeks holiday gone without spending with relish. such a shame. i used to call my mom and asked her when she would going back home? and she answered, " could u please be more matured? u can't just rely on me forever, u are a nice girl, take good care of ur lil brother". my tears just flowed out directly after she said that. i'm a baby when it comes to my mom. i'm so sensitive. in fact, i'm still phoning my mom but a little different. i won't complain what's happening at home, instead i ask her about my sis's condition. so my mom won't feel worry if i'm not crying like i used to anymore. actually everytime i hear my mom's voice, i'll cry! haha~ but i have to be strong!! my sis needs my mom more than i need her although i really need her now! when my mom is around, i usually tell her what's going on at school, if i feel bad, i'll go and talk to her. i'm also so close with my sister [wanie]. she is a heart entertainer. if i have problems about subjects that i don't understand, she will teach me. if i have problems with friends, she will always comfort me and always telling a true story based on her experiences with her friends. every story that has been told to me,must have a lesson. she has taught me everything!! i miss her!! at this moment,my heart is unquiet and my mind is confused!~ i need someone to talk to!! T_T i'm hoping Sasha will get better soon and they will come home soon!.
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